"cause i just know that she warms my heart and knows what all my imperfections are"

i just spent the last hour reading someones journal and depressing the hell out of my self . now i just hate my self more and wish i could die.-my painif i still held your lovei'd follow what you doi miss us being truewe were so perfectme and youwhydon't you just stopi never meant to hurt youi wish i could have taken it all backbut now i just sit here and laughi can't believe i was such a fucking foolcause i'm still here and in love with youthe pain will be gone soon but who really caresi'll be gone and you'll be ridthe trigger cocked the noose tightendhow long will i waitand stop being frightendTHE END

no sleep

i ended up going to Aaryn's house last night with roger and samantha we hung out with matt eddie, mark, ally,seira, these 2 guys who i can't remember there name and like 5 other girls that i can't really remember their names-i'm bad with names-samanthas mom got all mad and told her to come back at like midnight so i drove her home(sorry i made you mom mad-i hope she doesn't hate me now)then i went back - we were up like all night and we all decided to jump into aaryns pool at like 4 in the morning-(i saw more male nudity than i asked for and hope to see in a long time) the pool was freezing since it wasn't heated so we basically froze-i however jumped in 2 more times than those other panzies who only jumped in once. any way this is the second night this week that i haven't slept all night and i'm going to church soon so i'm really tired..-pool tables are fun-swiming pools are cold-loud music is good-and staying out all night makes you tired and act crazythe end